…no, I’m not quitting blogging. That would be kind of embarrassing, wouldn’t it? I barely lasted a few months, I’ve opened up to a ton of complete strangers, and then I take off? Nope, I love it (and all of you) way too much to just throw all of that away.
But I am saying goodbye to #freEDom. I can’t explain how it helped me, but it did. I’m in a better place mentally now ever since I started participating in the campaign a few months ago. Your comments have inspired me, motivated me, and taught me how to get out of that vicious cycle that is an eating disorder. While I’m not fully “recovered” from it, I’m closer to recovery than I am a relapse. I don’t consider myself disordered anymore. Sure, I have moments, but for the most part, I’m free from those days of my life.
Despite everything that #FreEDom has done for me, I don’t want it to hold me back, either. I started this blog as an outlet to detail my training, and while food and mental struggles are part of that training, I started to lose my focus.
What I do know is that track is starting again today and today I’m taking it back to the basics.
What to expect in the coming months:
- race recaps
- whining about speed workouts
- toenails falling off
- PRs (hopefully)
- bad races (hopefully not)
- race eats
- track meets
- whatever I want to talk about
So thanks everyone for bearing with me for the past few months as I’ve described in probably way too much detail what’s going on inside my mess of a head. I feel like I’m in a place where I’m ready to move on, and that’s exactly what I’m going to do.
How do you maintain the integrity of your blog?